While I'm at work today, my husband is at home spending quality time with Lil J. I just got off the phone with them with Lil J trying to carry on a conversation with me consisting of mixed "mommy?", "bye bye" and "luh loo's (love you)". Now I'm left wondering what I'm missing while I'm stuck here in the office on a gorgeous, hot summer day.
It's great that Lil J and Daddy can have some one-on-one time together, some male bonding time. But I could be out with them at the beach or park enjoying some fun family time. Am I missing out?
I keep trying to tell myself over and over again that it's good for Lil J to be without Mommy for a while. So he can become his own. Find his personality and explore life outside of Mommy's arms. So far, so good......
But for Mommy the guilt is still there. Not sure if it will ever go away and if it is just a "mom thing". For now, I'm telling myself that I am working for Lil J so that he can have a blessed and fortunate life. So that he can enjoy life as a kid, explore different things, and have many opportunities. Telling myself this keeps me going. Keeps my drive as a mom to better herself for her kids going.
I have dreams. I have goals. And my family is all part of it.
I like this post and can relate. I guess it's the mommy gene in full swing...
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